Life has been rather bland nowadays for me, or should I say I'm not making much effort or what to make it a much colourful one? Staying home on weekends is definitely a good way of saving money, energy and resting, with 2 soccer games of Liverpool to watch these 2 days made me even rooted to home, and not forgetting my Xbox360 as well. Been hooked to it lately, I'm not sure whether it's a good or bad thing, but at least it's some kind of entertainment I can get for myself by not heading out.

I've been thinking lately, what's exactly happening to my life, which really changed me.. I felt that the old me is no longer around, my usual lifestyle's gone, my usual smiles is gone, I'm not smiling as much as compared to the past, everything seems to be changed for me.. I'm not sure whether the others felt it, but at least I noticed the change in me. Is it only me, or what? Am I not making enough effort, or what? I really don't have an answer to that.

I can only say this is not a very very good year for me. Yes.. There are good things happening this year for me, happy events which makes me smile upon thinking back. but the unpleasant stuffs far surpass the happy events. I hope for a better year, which I think is quite impossible, but at least it's a good start for me, waving goodbye to year 2008 and welcoming year 2009 with open arms. =D

Every first step that I take seems to be futile..
Am I trying too much, or it's fated?