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2 years it had been, my blog. With 287 entries and still counting on, I've no idea time passes this fast that I've already been blogging and updating this blog for 2 years. I remembered I created this blog during the Year 1 of my Poly life, out of boredom when I'm having semester break, and wanted to have an experience of blogging, and so this blog was born. Now I'm in the midst of Year 3, and approaching the end of my Poly life...

But as you can see, as time passes by, I've been neglecting this blog and losing the passion to blog. I don't know the reason why, perhaps it's due to the lack of idea on what to blog, lack of events in my life, or lack of pictures to post. All these might be a reason for the lack of updates as time passes by slowly each day. If you guys are free while browsing my blog, you can look at the archives of my entries, at the August 2006 archive, there's almost an update everyday, but if you take a look at the latest month, the updates are like once a week or twice a week.

I realized that, not just that I've been neglecting my blog, I've been neglecting my friends around me as well. The distance between us seems to be drifting further and further away ever since I started my attachment, I'm not sure whether it's due to me having a busy week, or it's because of something else. I guess it's my fault for not attempting to at least give them a call on asking them how's their school or how's thing between his gf and him, it's really the INITIATIVE that I've always been lacking not just in terms of studies, but also in Friendship; Always taking the INITIATIVE.

If I were to sit down and reflect on myself, on my character or whatsoever, I can really find a lot of flaws in myself. I can proudly tell you all guys that, I'm not as hot tempered as before, but.. I still swears a lot. And that's a thing that, I'm sure my friends around me doesn't find it a very good thing. Am I right? Perhaps this is just me? Or just a bad habit that I can't change? Even I myself don't know the answer, vulgarities comes out from my mouth just like that.

I'm not sure if there's still a lot of people browsing my blog or still coming in to check for updates everyday even though there's still no updates. But I find that ever since my attachment started, I almost didn't even bother to sign into Blogger to update my blog, or even finding friends to chat in msn at night. My life has become very routine, when I reach home from work, I just bath and eat my dinner, watch tv and go online to update my e-SIP journal. After that I just go to sleep very very early, which I normally don't. Is it due to fatigue, or I'm not making an effort to talk to friends to know how are they? Even Pepper is very restless at home too, but whenever she sees me coming home, she would be very happy. But I don't even bother to bring her down for a walk, and just using an excuse of saying that I'm tired.

And btw, I'm feeling perfectly fine while typing this post, it might sounds a bit emotional, but don't worry, I'm fine. This post isn't pin pointing on anyone, if you find it rather uncomfortable, I can only apologize for it, I just wanted to blog out what I feel. =D