Walking Along with MW.
This is My Life.
Monday, February 23, 2009
2/23/2009 07:14:00 PM

Back from Genting, but nothing seems to have changed much for me. Now marks the day where another chapter of my life starts. I'm still not sure whether to invite my friends over to this space yet, or to make it private forever. Still can't make up my mind.

Regarding on the Genting trip, it was fun and tiring as well. One of the main reason was due to that I fell sick on the 2nd day, having a slight fever during the late afternoon. But luckily it occurs only after I've played most of the rides from the theme park, if not it'll be a total turn off and waste of money to enter the theme park. The Space Shot wasn't open when we went there, it was under maintenance. Hence Meifong and Mindy were both disappointed, because on the day we left, the maintenance was over and the ride was available. But the weather wasn't that good, foggy plus raining. So we were lucky that we were able to play all the rides on the day we went to theme park, especially the Corkscrew which I missed when I went there the 1st time. It can be considered the most thrilling ride I took during the theme park, but it still ranked 2nd as Space Shot is still the 1st. LOL. Another ride I enjoyed the most will be the Go Kart, I didn't play it during the 1st visit also. It was fun as the track is quite smooth, I didn't have to step on the brake even once to enter any turns. Then others went to play the teddy bear booth, trying to win the bears and soft toys there. The outcome was rather good, but Meifong spent a bit too much there. Lol.

The food there was good, except for the First World Cafe breakfast buffet. It was a total waste of money as the food there was normal and not much variety. Other than that, other food all tasted nice. We had fast food there for most of our lunches there, supper on the 1st night and dinner on the 2nd night was cup noodles. Haha. Funny yeah? Went so far up the mountains just to have their cup noodles there. Lol. The hotel stay was okay? Some idiots were like drunk or something and shouting so loud in the middle of the night, disrupting my sleep. Other than that we enjoyed the dai dee, donkey session. Haha.

And the bus we took broke down while we were going uphill. Bloody kuku driver, pushed the bus too hard, causing the engine to die. Luckily there's another bus passing by to pick us up.

Alright, time for some pictures, I'm lazy to type anymore. LOL.

Day 1


Day 2



Thursday, February 19, 2009
2/19/2009 07:57:00 PM

I never expect that it would be so painful to be typing those messages, telling you that I'm alright, and hoping that everything will be still the same as before when we start to know each other.

I never expect that it requires so much courage, to be typing the message and sending it to you after a few days later.

I never expect that telling my friends that I'm feeling alright would pierce me through so much, and to put on a strong front in front of them to be so tiring.

I never expect that after so much things that had happened, everything seems to be back to the starting point again where things start from zero once again.

Never did I expect that, the old Meng Wee that's once a joker and bringing laughter to friends around him to be dead and vanished in this world already..


I've packed my stuffs that's needed for my Genting trip just now, and right now I'm here to type this post. How I wished that I can fill the luggage full of my problems, and then bringing it to Genting and just pour everything away there. Then back to Singapore starting afresh, like how I used to led my life, just like any ordinary person out there. But I guess after coming back from Genting, I'll be contacting EA for a part time job. Then that will be the time where I keep myself occupied with work and long distance of travelling, gradually forgetting the feeling that I have for her. =/

罗志祥 - 搞笑

那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 藉着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麽熬
这麽多年早就习惯有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道 你好不好

我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床尾 少了一双脚
所以它常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑 藉着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
我在搞笑 却在醉后 眼泪拼命飙
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳 对谁炫耀

还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到 你好不好


Monday, February 16, 2009
2/16/2009 06:15:00 PM

I've decided to make my blog into a private space already, have been wanting to do this long ago, but never really done it. So now it's officially private, although I'm the only one that that read this post starting from today, still it's okay. I might invite some of my friends whom I want them to read over to this space soon I guess?


你负出的 永远不等于 你得到的

From the above quote, I truly understands what it means today. And it's really very very true. You may put in a lot of effort in whatever you do, be it your project or relationship, but at the end of it, what you will get back normally is never that you had expected.


期望越高 失望越大

Never to have false hopes, as said, the higher you stand, the more pain you will get when you fall. The higher your false hopes are, the more painful your heart will get. I had the chance to experience this in my life up till today, never did I expect that the impact of the fall to be so huge.

Just when everything seems to be working out fine, just a word, a truth, can tear down everything and leave you devastated. I guess that's life? You must live in the reality always, but not in your own world, blast it out of the own world and get back to reality, as your life will not be as colorful as any fairytale stories.

When someone asks me, "Are you okay?" What I normally reply is, "Yes, I am. Don't worry. =D" But deep down in my heart, I'm not okay. I'm just trying to put on a strong front in front of my friends, I don't want them to be troubled over me, I don't want them to worry about me, I don't want to add on more burdens to what they already have. I've never always shared my troubles and problems with my friends around me, even with my closest ones. I always keep my problems bottled up, although I know that it's not a good way, but what else can I really do? I'm just not good at expressing myself, that's always been the problem for me.

Inferior. Yes I'm inferior. Because I have no good points in myself at all, I can only thinking of bad points like hot tempered, vulgar etc in myself. So what makes me stands out? I guess I'm just like any other ordinary boy out in the world. What makes me feel more and more inferior is because I've failed in relationship many many times. I lost confidence, started to have low self esteem of myself, and gradually, I might even forget how to love...

I hope I'll be feeling better when I'm back from Genting next week. Lastly, to end with a few songs which depicts my mood right now..

黄丽玲 - 失恋无罪

你说我对你紧紧跟随
你觉得疲惫
你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择
一个人睡
我忍住眼泪我尊重眼泪

孤独万岁失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对于人性早有预备
还不算太黑

独身万岁失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃
并不是在犯罪

David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand


Saturday, February 14, 2009
2/14/2009 07:49:00 PM

Love is in the air~

Happy Valentines Day~!


Thursday, February 12, 2009
2/12/2009 12:01:00 AM

I read Jayelle's blog just now, and came across something that she typed and I found it really true and meaningful.

When you wear new shoes, you have blisters on your foot.
What do you do?
You have to keep walking, keep walking..
And one day you will realize your blisters are gone and u are comfortable in your shoes. :)

It's actually same as life, you will come across obstacles in your life. Not once, but many times. So what should you do? We have to keep moving on, and slowly one day, these problems will be gone. If you choose to throw the shoe aside, you will still get blisters on your foot the next time you wear it.


Monday, February 09, 2009
2/09/2009 11:48:00 AM

Alright, this will be quite a lengthy post after I upload all the pictures. But I've to wait for Meifong to send me the photos, and at the mean time I only got 3 photos to upload, that's the class photo we taken during the seminar I attended on last Friday.

6th Feb 2009 (Friday)
Went to school to attend the Last Lap Seminar for our graduation, but before that I went to print out my MP report and burn the project into a CD for submission. So after settling everything, went for the seminar and got to know what are the life we gonna led after graduating. NS then Uni? Not much during the seminar, went to the Careers' Fair and took information on the various universities and companies. Then off to Chinatown to check out the price of the Genting trip.


7th Feb 2009 (Saturday)
Woke up quite early and prepare, cos going to bai nian at my poly classmates house. 1st stop was Choonwei's house, which is at Boonlay. LOL. So I met Mindy and Weikiat at Boonlay mrt at 11.30am, but I reached earlier. Went to walk around JP, it's much more bigger after the renovation, I nearly got lost inside. After Mindy and Weikiat reached, bought lunch and went to Choonwei's house. Ate our lunch there and then next stop was my house. Reached my house and they played with Pepper, Choonwei seems to be torturing my dog instead of playing with her. Lol. Then next stop to Weikiat's house, reached there I played with his Xbox360, and others played daidee. Haha. Next stop was Mindy's house to bai nian and steamboat for dinner, went to shop for steamboat ingredients before heading to her house. Ate alot during the steamboat because there's so much food, but the feeling was shiok. Lol.

After steamboat, we played blackjack, ah chap and lastly in between. I won quite alot at in between, that game really requires good luck. And you can lose really fast and win really fast as well. Was really fun during the gambling part, even mindy's mum and bro were joining in the fun. Haha. Went off around 12am+, Choonwei sent Weikiat home 1st, then Meifong suggested going to 1 of the night hot spots in Singapore, Changi Village to see ba bok. Lol. Since it's on the way, we went there for awhile. And I can say some of 'them' there are really hot, but some cannot make it, cos they hasn't gone through the complete 'transform' yet. Didn't manage to take any pictures even though Choonwei turned into the carpark for so many times, but we did see one of 'them' wearing a skirt that's so short that we can see the ass and the g-string. LOL. So after 4-5 rounds around the carpark, we went off. Haha. Reached home around 1-2am? Can't remember.