The Greatest Irony of Love

Loving the right person at the wrong time,
having the wrong person when the time is right,
and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life.

And sometimes,
you think you’re already over a person,
but when you see them smile at you,
you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending
to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing
that they will never be yours again.

For some, they think letting go is one way
of expressing how much they love that person.
In my opinion, some are afraid to see the only one they love,
being held by someone else.

Most relationships tend to fail
not because of the absence of love.
Love is always present.
It’s just that one was being loved too much,
and the other was being loved too little.

As we all know,
the heart is the center of the body,
but it beats on the left.
Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right.

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love,
to only discover that, for them, we are just passing time-
while the one who truly loves us remains
either a friend or a stranger.


So, here’s a piece of advice:

Let go when you’re hurting too much.
Give up when love isn’t enough.
And move on when things are not like before.
For sure, there is someone out there,
who will love you even more.

School had started for those Poly students, and I'm stucked at home without a job and still depending on my dad's pocket money each week. I should be working a part time job now normally like any others and helping my dad with his work load. But instead I'm jobless and shaking my leg at home everyday and waiting for time to pass by aimlessly. And how I wish I can be like any other Poly students, waking up early and going to school. At least I won't be troubled over this burden of not helping my dad relieving his burden. Damn it.

Some people might say that I'm may be using this time now to rest before getting enlisting, but by the time I get enlisted, it's still a few months time before that. I should be getting an income stable job and giving my dad allowance instead of my dad giving me allowance each week cause I'm not working. You all might feel that, it's good that your dad is giving you allowance even though you are not working, but the fact is that, my dad has been giving me allowance since I started studying. Shouldn't it be time for me to be repaying this to my dad?

Birthday in just a few days time, no plans of celebrating as I find it no point at all. The celebration will not be as the same as before anyway. So I find it meaningless to celebrate it, it's just another normal day in the calender. Buddies are away in Taiwan for holiday and training, left with me and a couple of friends, the atmosphere will not be even there even if I plan to have a celebration isn't it? With no income, there's not much places I can think of going too, Singapore is just way too small in my point of view. Even if I want to go overseas for a celebration, it's also too late and rush to make all these arrangements.

Graduation Ceremony is approaching as well, it's another thing that requires money. I'm thinking whether to ask from my dad or fork it out myself. The rental of the graduation gown requires money, and I need to tailor make my formal wear as well. All these requires money, why is that all the problems in my life had got to do with money? Damn, money is the root of all evil. And Temasek Poly even sent me emails regularly reminding me of the 20 cents fine that I owe them, if I don't pay that fine, I won't be able to attend the Graduation Ceremony and get my Diploma as stated in the booklet. Damn. Luckily I passed my matric card to Angela and she's helping me to pay the fine. =x Thanks~ =D

It means you have this feeling of familiarity when you are at a certain place, doing a certain thing that makes you have a sudden feel that you've been to the place, or done this thing before previously. I've experienced this a couple of times in my life already, but I'm gonna type this out here is because what I've experienced recently was really really something very surprising.

I went for my class BBQ last Saturday at Pasir Ris park and when I reached there, I suddenly felt that it's like an event that I've been to before in my life. The feeling was so vivid like it's been only taken place recently. And I thought that it might just be some random feeling that came onto my mind as I've been to so many BBQs recently. But when I've reached home, I switched on my TV, tuned around channels looking for shows, and finally settled down on a variety show. So I made myself a cup of hot chocolate drink and started munching on the egg tarts my bro bought, and this time, the feeling of Deja Vu happened once again. I actually sat still on my sofa, staring into the space and trying hard to recall did this scenario happened before. This was the first time that I actually couldn't understand how did this actually took place, and how do the theory of science explain this.