Okay well, I'm feeling pretty much bored right now. Can't get to sleep or anything, have been feeling rather troubled for the whole day since I en quire on the school fees on DigiPen. The person told me it's $77,000 for a 4 years a Bachelor course, and it's a private uni, and my brother told me that I can't take a loan from the government. I can only take a study loan from the bank. And my dad asked me to apply for NUS or NTU, but I told him that my results wasn't good enough for both that universities. I can see the disappointment in him, that I've not performing well enough in school and make it into university.

I wonder if I'm really someone who can really studies, or I'm just playing around just too much? From my Poly's results, I doubt I can perform well studying in a uni needless to say. I should not waste the 77k from my dad, and not being able to excel academically well. And after today's talk about our future life by my course lecturers, I'm sure my life took a big turn. I knew that my GPA wasn't good enough to apply for NUS and NTU, there are degrees that I can take overseas, but the cost is very high.

I'm really confused right now, I've been thinking ever since I reached home just now, whether to apply for DigiPen or not. Up until now, I still can't come up with a decision yet. Although DigiPen is not looking at my GPA, but I need to have a good portfolio to show them to reserve my place there. I wonder who can I approach to clarify all the doubts that I have now... Sighs...

if I ever tell you that I'm alright, I actually don't meant it...