I never expect that it would be so painful to be typing those messages, telling you that I'm alright, and hoping that everything will be still the same as before when we start to know each other.

I never expect that it requires so much courage, to be typing the message and sending it to you after a few days later.

I never expect that telling my friends that I'm feeling alright would pierce me through so much, and to put on a strong front in front of them to be so tiring.

I never expect that after so much things that had happened, everything seems to be back to the starting point again where things start from zero once again.

Never did I expect that, the old Meng Wee that's once a joker and bringing laughter to friends around him to be dead and vanished in this world already..


I've packed my stuffs that's needed for my Genting trip just now, and right now I'm here to type this post. How I wished that I can fill the luggage full of my problems, and then bringing it to Genting and just pour everything away there. Then back to Singapore starting afresh, like how I used to led my life, just like any ordinary person out there. But I guess after coming back from Genting, I'll be contacting EA for a part time job. Then that will be the time where I keep myself occupied with work and long distance of travelling, gradually forgetting the feeling that I have for her. =/